Is it time to quit blogging here at Last Mom? I’ve been asking myself that question for months now.
I got busy with my new LuLaRoe business in the spring (and then even busier in the summer when the inventory arrived). Starting this new business has taken up pretty much every minute and thought I have. However, as I’m move towards the year mark I’m making a conscious effort to regain some balance.
I miss writing. I’ve started pitching and submitting freelance work again.
However, while I’ve missed writing, I’m not sure I’ve actually missed BLOGGING. At least, not in the way I was doing it.
Putting it all out there for people to dissect is exhausting.
And after the extended time away, I’ve realized it wasn’t healthy for me.
I woke up January 1 and decided to quit blogging at Last Mom, but to keep the Last Mom Facebook page going. I have changed my mind about 6 million times back and forth since then.
I love the community of Last Mom readers. I am so proud we have helped so many foster and adoptive families feel not as alone. I beam when you tell me how my girl has inspired you and given insight into trauma and child mental health. I will forever be grateful for your encouragement and support.
But this half a year without blogging much has shown me how healivly the judgement , criticism and mean comments that come with putting it all out there weighed on me. I’m tired of trying to write anonymously when I am all over the internet with my other writing, but I can’t completely “come out of the shadows” at on this blog because so much of what I have written is so deeply personal.
And Princess is sixteen now. I used to feel at least partial ownership of the stories and while she’s still fine with the blog, it just doesn’t feel the same to me now that she’s in high school. Plus, there’s really not a whole lot to write about. Trauma isn’t riding shotgun in our world any longer. It’s not even in the backseat. It’s stuffed in the trunk under piles of typical teenager stuff.
So I’m kind of at a crossroads. There is information about trauma, adoption, anxiety disorder, etc. I think is valuable that I want to always make accessible. I’m in the process of reverting all the posts to drafts (a long process since there are nearly 2,000 posts!). Then I’ll go through them and decide what to do with them.
We haven’t disappeared. We’re doing very well. I post little snippets of our lives on Facebook most days, so come follow along over there while I decide what to do here.
I don’t think I’m going to completely quit blogging, but things definitely have to change for my own well-being.